To react to anything lately. Im just very irritated at the moment, and it’s over something stupid. You’re the type to let something great go for something good but this time Im not gonna give 2fkcs. Ima do me, with or without you. I don’t need your type of person in my life. Anyways, FOUR DAY WEEKEND! I’m happy, I need this. I just need to catch on my sleep, it’s affecting my school work because I be so tired in class. &It’s affecting my attitude as well because I be so cranky. But yeah, hopefully I see at least one of them this weekend. I kinda wanna see one more than other, but I’ll be satisfied with either (: HAHA, I’m bad.
2 years ago
My father &I got into this huge fight earlier today, over a whole bunch of NOTHING. Rude remarks were being thrown back and fourth at each other, but one thing that hurt me the most was when he said, “I wish you were dead.” It didn’t really hit me at that moment because I was just so angry at him, but when I got into my room I sat there and cried for hours. I mean, I dont kno if he said that because he was really angry, but nonetheless, that’s something he should have kept to himself. I don’t even know when I’m gonna start talking to him again because that’s so unforgivable. I honestly think that if I didn’t have the kind of friends I have now, there’s no telling what I would have done. I just feel so unwanted at home, I hate it here.
2 years ago
- is just for me to freekin be happy. I want to find myself again, I don’t want to be burried under all this stress and depression ovaa something like this. Lately, I’ve been really stupid about handling my situations.
- is for you to realize that i’m absolutely crazy over you. I dont get how you’re not seeing it, or maybe you have realized it but you just dont care. I don’t know what to do. I want to stick it out with you, cos Im so attached but it’s all going nowhere. I want to be in love with someone who’s in love with me . But I guess like they say; just because the two of you love each other, doesnt always mean youre meant for each other. siiiigh
- is to be secure again. I’m insecure, and I’m man enough to admit it.
&-Why does it feel like everyone is against me? I miss how things used to be when I was younger. School was so much easier, boys weren’t a bigass deal, mommy and daddy always being there for me (not that theyre not now), college &careers weren’t even a thot in my mind. Now I feel so much more stressed out about every little thing. It’s like my mind is ruining everything I do. Life was just a whole diffferent story, &it was so much smoother. I guess I miss getting tha easy way out of everything. Lifes a problem now-a-days. BUTWHYTHO?
2 years ago
Sometimes I say stuff just to say stuff, not knowing what I just said, or not meaning a single word. I hate that I have that habit, it’s so bad.);
2 years ago
If youre confused, there’s two diffferent guys I’m talking about in my bloggs. I know, all bad but I like them both. It’s just that Im into one more than other, but the other guy is little bit of a mystery &that’s why I’m attracted to him. Kbyeeee!
2 years ago
I don’t wanna have these feelings for you because I dont wanna go thru the same shit. I have a strong feeling it’s just gonna end the same in the end - badly &I sure dont need any of that to be repeated. You say you don’t like it when girls play hard to get, and I’m trying not to because I want you to want me, but it’s hard because I don’t want to seem easy and I’m still holding back. I hate how my attitude is; How I let one nigga ruin it for every other guy. It’s like my mind is set to thinking that all guys are bad, that they’re all going to treat me the same way .. I kno there are good guys out there, but I’m not giving them a chance and I hate it. I guess I’m just a little insecure, thanks to those assholes. What do I do with you? I don’t want you to leave me, but its like I NEED you to because I’m just so tired of it all. gaygaygay.
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*In the mood to blogg- It’s 1017 pm, &I’m up waiting for you; just like how it always is. I realized a lot of things today. But one thing I realized the most is, it’s not fair for me to hold a grudge over something like that. Youre gonna make so much more mistakes, and I cant be getting mad at you for every single one. In life, there aint not damn soul who’s perfect so why should I be angry at you forever for it? It just wouldnt be fair. &If it was me who made a mistake, I’d want the same forgiveness in return. No more being a pessimist bcos look at where it got me - it got me to nowhere .. Nowhere but being depressed all the time over something stupid and little that shouldnt even be significant .. that shouldnt even be bothered about. Another thing I realized is that I love you. I really do. No, I’m not sayin I’m in love with you, but I feel so close to it.. Idcare what anyone says anymore, it was you from tha start, and I’m willing to stick it out with you.. I’m gonna try to get this, because I want you. Thru the minor problems, and the big problems; Ima hold it down.
2 years ago
“I know that you’ve been calling me,
and I’m happy that we met.
Don’t think that I’m not interested,
I’m just playing hard to get.”
im slowly falling for you; but im holding back so much. i don’t want to be hurt anymore. im tired of going thru the same cycle when it comes to guys. maybe you’re different, but i’m not gonna get my hopes up.. we’ll see where things go.
2 years ago
