uhoh oreo

i dont kno what’s wrong with me; i feel very .. empty i guess? idkno, like ive had this feeling before but it’s one of those where you can’t explain it . im really hating tha situation im in .. like with this whole boy thing . like ive already stated in a previous blogg, i feel im wasting my tiiime . you wonder, THEN WHY AM I STILL ON HIM? i honestly really dont know .. i guess it’s because he’s really an amazing guy . he’s really nice, and i swear to bob he’s different from any guy ive ever talked to .. but i just wanna hold back &keep my guard up becos i really dont wanna get hurt; he makes it so hard for me tho .. like with him, i feel like he wont hurt me - not on purpose at least . ahhh! idk idk idk . boys are so complicated, but when are they not ? anyways, enough about that subject .. so it’s my time of tha month &i have cramps like a bitch ); times like these, i really wish i was a guy! haha . call me weird, but sometimes i do wanna be a guy . just for a day or two .. only because i wanna kno what it  feels like to jack off or have sex with a girl! NO HOMO THO .. lmao ((x im ouuutskeez